A Changing Moment

Weeks ago,
I felt uninterested in anything.
Probably because everything is under control, everything is scheduled.
I try to make thing interesting to do such try a new recipe or watch a new genre film or I anything that can make me excited.
But nothing interest me.

Something caught my attention.
Skateboarding.
So googled and bought a pennyboard few days later.

Received the board for two weeks now.
Went to cruise around twice.
I was scare to lift the other leg to the board for a long time.
One step at a time, able to put both feets on the board, make a slight turn, but not doing any tricks yet.
Not attempt to learn trick yet.
Of course, a few falls and some bruise after. 

Panic attacked last week.

I was panic till can't think things straight and started overthinking. 

So that day I went to bed early;

and woke up early the next day. 

Of course the panic is not over yet. 

But felt much better and the pressure is lessen. 

That day I woke up early - cleaned up the kitchen - had breakfast - went to uni - assignment - gym - home - dinner - film - bed

Same routine for a few days. 

There's some pressure because of the assignment due date, 

but it was never like that day. 

Starting the day early make me feel better. 

Enjoying breakfast as along as I want, eating while checking email, instagram, facebook;

Or going gym before. 

The quietness in the morning make me feel better. 

It makes me feel less anxious and more efficient. 

These are some of changing moments recently.
At some point, I did feel less worthy, anxious and those negative emotion.
I think the main point in this post, I'm trying to solve the problem without running away from it.
I know I become less interest in life so I look for something completely new to me.
I know I might over pressure myself so I look for a way to relax myself more.
I think everyone has their own moment like this, a changing moment.
A moment seeking for a  change.